#sharestrength – Chemotherapy #11

I can’t believe that just a cycle before, I said that I was starting to feel numbness on my fingers and feet because by the end of my 11th cycle, the numbness has escalated pretty quickly.

I’ve started to feel less grip on my fingers and feet (not sure if it’s due to lack of sensation or I did indeed lose grip). I started wearing sandals to work because work ballerinas were causing blisters to my numb feet. I couldn’t feel my feet 100% and felt like they were getting weak too. Continue reading #sharestrength – Chemotherapy #11

#sharestrength – Chemotherapy #9

It has been 3 weeks since my 9th chemotherapy cycle. As usual, the side effects were never the same. After administering so much drug into my body for 9 times since March, I was finally confused which cycle I was at. Every time I got confused, I visited my blog to check the latest update on my chemotherapy treatment. Hehe.

Another remarkable (and depressing) experience during this chemotherapy cycle was numbness or tingling in my fingers and toes. At times, I felt it in my entire arm and foot too. According to Cancer Research UK, nearly everyone undergoing FOLFOX chemotherapy gets this side effect due to oxaliplatin drug. In worst case scenario, I’d have trouble buttoning my shirt, etc. Sadly, unlike other side effects that usually go away by the time I have my next treatment, this numbness and tingling feeling seems to persist. I still have it as I’m typing 3 weeks after my recent treatment. It’d take months to heal apparently. I hope it doesn’t get worse in my remaining 3 treatments. Continue reading #sharestrength – Chemotherapy #9

#sharestrength – Chemotherapy #8

I spent a long time (maybe an hour or more) with my oncologist during my first consultation before deciding on doing chemotherapy. But that’s only once. Ever since then, I may have held the record for the shortest consultation among the other patients, pretty much every round of chemotherapy.

I think chemo hasn’t started yet because I see no tube in this pic. Anyway, it was taken on chemo day regardless.

Here’s kinda what I told my doctor about my 8th cycle…

“Hello!” Continue reading #sharestrength – Chemotherapy #8

#sharestrength – 6 Months After Surgery

I’ve been anticipating for this date: 26 July 2016. I can’t believe I pretty much forgot about it today because I was so distracted by my chemotherapy side effects! Anyway, I hit my 6-month mark post-colectomy surgery today! *pops confetti and champagne*

Going through chemotherapy made it felt like eons have passed since this Big-C adventure started. But looking back at the surgery, I’m feeling like “half a year already?” Clearly, the experience with the surgery and chemotherapy is very different. Continue reading #sharestrength – 6 Months After Surgery

Things Not To Say To Cancer Patients

The polite title is “Things Not to Say to Cancer Patients.” The honest title is “Things I HATE Hearing as a Cancer Patient.” In all honesty and as a disclaimer, this is a challenging article to write simply because I’m trying hard to be polite while sharing what frustrates me a lot during my experience as a patient of Stage 3 Colon Cancer. So if I sound harsh, please allow me to use my “chemo moodiness” card to pardon myself.

“You should have (fill in the blank).”

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#sharestrength – Chemotherapy #7

After a week of delay, I started my 7th cycle of FOLFOX chemotherapy on a Tuesday, completed the cycle on Thursday, received a white blood cell booster injection on Thursday at the hospital and received another white blood cell booster injection on Friday at a clinic.

chemo port bandage
Finally wore another different set of outfit for my chemo? This outfit wasn’t very convenient though. The collar opening is too big, exposing my gigantic chemo port bandage.
MBG juice
After my chemo that day, I went to my sister’s office nearby to wait for her to fetch my mom and I home while sipping a cup of juice from MBG.

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Thoughts on Me Before You The Movie 2016

While I was browsing Facebook, I stumbled  upon Me Before You full movie uploaded on Facebook in HD. Wow. Piracy going wildfire on the largest social media platform? I told my friends about the piracy and brewed a short discussion about the movie.

me before you the movie 2016

Both friends thought the movie was just alright while I totally loved the movie. A friend said she doesn’t understand why Will ended his life while another didn’t get the message that it was an assisted death. I, on the other hand, processed this movie from another perspective — the movie hit me as a patient of Stage 3 Colon Cancer, a critical illness that may take my life away.

I had a lot going through my mind after watching the movie in the cinema. I wanted to find an opportunity to pen down my thoughts but never found the right time, until now. Continue reading Thoughts on Me Before You The Movie 2016

#sharestrength – Chemotherapy #6

Definitely mixing up my memories of my past few chemotherapy cycles. If not for the dates of the photos stored in my phone, it’d be impossible to recall.

Anyway, my 6th chemo cycle was one milestone cycle. Because before I started the entire chemotherapy treatment, my oncologist mentioned that depending on how my body copes, he may order to stop chemotherapy after 6 cycles because that’s when it’s deemed that it has been somewhat effective.

I was really looking forward to hit this milestone for I wished I can stop the treatment even though everything was going smoothly. Continue reading #sharestrength – Chemotherapy #6

#sharestrength – Chemotherapy #5

Been putting off writing about my 5th chemotherapy cycle to the point it’s due to write about my 6th chemotherapy cycle. I know right… #procrastination

Slight smile because my new Redmi Note 3 phone said I looked younger than my age. Not smiling widely because I found out my liver has been working harder than normal so I was prescribed liver tonic for a month.

Liver working too hard was a big news for me. It got my demotivated. But here’s a bigger highlight: I failed my blood test at the end of the cycle. It’s the first time I failed my blood test and was denied chemotherapy so I could not carry on with my 6th cycle on time. Continue reading #sharestrength – Chemotherapy #5